Sad day

Today, again the sadness almost eat up me and left nothing for myself. Morning started as usual and then, one phone call change it totally. She called me again, with the same crying mode, saying she is blind and sad. She has psychosis you know, but not treated for so long. Until now, i think it's under-treated. Not that we don't want to send her to hospital, but, there is one thing preventing us. I still couldn't bring myself to talk much about it. No one know this thing, only one person, Miss H knows this.

 

1st

First post is always the hardest. But the need to expressed myself is greater than the shyness, laziness and all those negative thoughts that had been preventing me from creating a blog.

I feel alone, with friends besides me, but still, I'm alone. Fighting battles over battles, thinking of a new solution, but still, is not able to implement it and see it done. I'm sad and the thought of giving up is there. I'm trying to stay strong, for my dreams, family and most importantly, my values in me don't wanna give up. But I'm tired...